Wednesday, March 16, 2011
My Dr. came in and apologized because they were running so late that day. (running so late in fact that it was and hr past closing time by that point) So you can imagine my unexpected shock when she begins to tell me that on the ultra sound of my baby girls brain its measuring a little bit bigger on one side than the other.
My Dr. was very good with talking to me about it, and didn't want me to worry too much. Because in her opinion it'll probably be OK. She says she has seen this happen often. Sometimes it was just the way the ultra sound was done. Like if the Doppler was slightly tilted when she took the pic instead of "straight" it could make the image look that way, or if the baby had moved a bit when she took the pic could cause the same thing. Also she said- allot of times one side will be bigger than the other but will even out by birth.
She is sending me to USA hospital in Alabama for a high risk Ultra sound. Its not far from my Dr's office. And they will be able to see more because their US equipment is much better. She also told me that even if everything looked good she's never known them not to at least see a person 1 or 2 times after that just to follow up on how they're doing and how things look. She said she knows that is hard not to worry because she's a mother and understands. That she hates to worry anyone if it is unnecessary. But it would be deceitful of course to just give me another ultra sound in her office and not tell me why.
During all of that I'm trying to process and remember what she is telling me. Through my shock Trying to wrap my head around everything. So after I checked out, and was in the car with my mama (she came with us to watch dassah and watched the ultra sound since dh had to work ) I tried to find the words to tell her what had just happen. My voice cracked a bit of course because of strongly trying to control my emotions. I did manage to calm my nerves a bit and began to tell her what my Dr. had told me. She of course says not to over stress and worry and that we would all Pray about it.
I told dh that night. I kept wanting to start telling him but would feel myself almost burst into tears every time I was about to from being so tense about it. Then would try to compose my self again and again. It didn't take long for him to notice something was wrong with me and asked what was wrong. The tears came, and him being the comforter that he is.. listened to everything while rubbing my back. And after I was through telling him all I knew. He tells me not to stress and worry too much and that we'll Pray about it, and to just have Faith that everything will be OK with the baby. I don't know what I would do with out him.
Today I called and checked in with my Dr's office and left a message to touch base and MAKE SURE that they were on the ball about getting me an appt at USA. A nurse called me back and was very nice to me and reassured me that they are in the process of that and are waiting to here back from them. She said they had to send them allot of info, and that she'll call them tomorrow morning and I should have an Appt date by tomorrow. Which will be good.
It's good that my Dr. thinks this maybe nothing, BUT as a Parent you NEVER want to hear that the slightest thing could be wrong with your baby/child. I'm sure you all understand.
So as of today I have done really well no major break downs . Trying my best not to let worry and fear set in (with God's help). And Praying and asking the Lord through out my day to give us peace of mind and heart... Asking that and putting my Faith in Him that everything will be OK and that He is in control. Please continue to keep our family and our sweet baby girl in your Prayers. That's the BEST thing anyone could do for us.
I'm sorry this was so long. I didn't even know how I was going to begin this post. Only a few select people know about this in my family that I've told and they are Praying to. I do not want to tell anyone else right now.. and deal with questions that I don't have the answers to, and just don't want to talk to them about it. And right now we really don't know one way or the other if there is an issue.
I'm a very Private person, and all I need when dealing with somethings are God, my husband, my mama, sister, 1 aunt, and a grandma that will Pray about it. I am blessed with amazing support and encouragement through all these people. Thinking about this makes me want to cry thankful happy tears.
Thanks for listening and just being here. Y'all will never know just how much it means or helps. I'm going to bed now and hoping for a good nights sleep.
Looks ready to turn a flip! (and looks uncomfortable to me;) haha
And Now what you've been waiting for...
Its Another Princess:D We are Thrilled & Excited of course! Only thing is she has no name as of now because me and dh both dislike most girl names:( We don't know what we're looking for in a name so feel free to suggest any Names you like or may think of later on.
Note: I will have another post coming up about my appt yesterday hopefully sometime today. I didn't won't to dampin all my Happyness of this post. PLEASE DON'T WORRY... but feel free to Pray for me, my husband Randy, and baby Girl #2. Thank you! And Much Love to you ALL!
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
We got a call at *2am* on January 31st that my sister was in Labor and that her water had just broke. She never dilated past 1cm, so she had a c-section. And it was a *GIRL*!
Miss "Horizon" Kelly Kirksey was born 1-31-11, at 5:30pm, weighed 6lbs 10oz, and was 21" long:D She has a Full head of thick black hair and is just Gorgeous! We are so happy for my sister and her husband!
My big girl is almost 9 months old:*) Here is an pic of here at 8 months. She weighs 21lbs now.lol Girl still likes to eat, and is still addicted to her bottle. Refuses to drink from a sippy cup:p Little stinker.
She is very much still a Baby in many ways- she refuses to hold her bottle, hates to be on her tummy (which has made crawling impossible right now, because she doesn't have some muscle strength that babies develop when on their tummy's.) And over all doesn't have the "want to" to do allot of things. I'm hoping that she is like a few other children in my family, and will catch up when shes ready. She is a very, very bright little girl, but as her mommy I worry sometimes of course. I don't want her to have to struggle in life to learn things.
The worry maybe worse for me, since I have watched my little Brother struggle because of Dyslexia and ADD. He has a strong case of both. So Both things together make it very hard to learn things. He is very bright also and has an above average IQ. He Just happens to learn different than others.
Over all I need to stop worrying, and just work a little more with Dassah on some things. (and if in the future there is an issue we'll deal with it) Everything will be fine. Guess I needed to blog a bit about it, feels good to get it off my chest. Its not the end of the world.
Before I forget she also will be needing glasses in the future. Her eyes want to cross because shes far sided. So she's straining to see things up close. Glasses will fix this:) her next eye Dr appt is in 2 months. It's not going to be easy at first getting her to wear glasses, but it'll be worth it cause we all can tell she can't focus on things up close allot of the time because of her eye sight pour thing.
She says "dada" now and its super sweet of course. She makes us laugh every day with her funny and sweet little personality. She loves going outside for strolls and still loves to watch her favorite show.(from good distance from tv of course so she doesn't strain her eyes as much) She's a happy baby, and that of course makes us happy as well! We both are on antibiotics for sinus infection, both our throats look awful too. So hopefully we'll get to feeling better soon!
And last but not least! I'm 17 weeks today:) Time is Flying by!!! Yesterday I went in for my monthly check up, Dr couldn't find the heartbeat on the Doppler, so I got to see the baby on ultra sound! (note: that I wasn't very worried when she couldn't find the heartbeat, I have been feeling this little one move for weeks) Its hard to find the HB at home on Doppler as well because this little bugger won't be still!lol I did start to feel a bit of concern and anxiety after having to wait for several min. for an ultra sound. As soon as the Tech started the US we saw the perfect little heartbeat at 155 bpm. S/he was moving and touching their little face. SO Precious! Was bumbed that baby wasn't in the position to see the gender.lol It was a quick little us. But I go back in just 2 weeks for my 19week scan:) And baby better cooperate and show us what it is;) Or else I'll go crazy! I'm ready to find out now!