Tuesday, December 21, 2010

*ICLW* December 2010

Hello everyone!

Allot has gone on since Nov. ICLW. So I will give you all a quick update. We were planning a FET for January. At the beginning of this month I was waiting for AF to show up so I could start taking BCP's in preparation for our FET on January 28th.

Long story short. I was concerned and thought that I might need something to make me start. I called my Nurse on Dec 3rd I think, and she said she was not worried about it yet, and to just give her a call if I hadn't started by the next Friday. A few days later on Sunday Dec.5th, I sent my husband out for to stock up on lots of Pregnancy test for our up coming FET, YES I cheat in the 2WW.lol Anyway I also knew that my nurse would want me to take a test if I hadn't started by that following Friday. SO Dh comes in the test and says- why don't you take one now? I'm like no I really don't like those test. (and I had no reason to believe I was preg.) I still hate seeing a BFN. Anyway Late that night at about 10pm, I thought hey I have to pee, what can it hurt? I'll POAS. SO You can imagine my total shock when the test came up positive with in 2 min!!! I took 3 more test through out that night and they were all positive too.

Medically speaking we should not be able to conceive naturally. I have PCOS and my cycles must have regulated after the birth of our 1st, But DH has a male Factor LOW Count And VERY LOW Motility. We Needed ICSI with our 1st. I honestly think this must have been a case where the *1 good sperm* made it against all odds! I'm still amazed by this! I know this can happen, but truthfully you never expect it to happen to you.. you know?

So we got the best early Christmas Present EVER! Baby #2 is on his/her way:D I have my 2nd ultra sound at my RE's office this Thursday, and if all looks good they'll release me. I think it will go great though, I know I'm sicker than sick with morning sickness(all-day sickness). In truth all though I'm exactly happy, I'm having a hard time. I have been terribly sick for at least 6 days and can't hardly eat or keep my food down. This is taking a toll and I'm feeling extremely weak in my body. I want to be able to give My baby girl the attention she deserves. And be able to to Enjoy her 1st Christmas, and not spend it next to the toilet:( Sorry for the TMI.

At least she is Happy though, and content to sit in her high chair and watch her favorite show *Angelina Ballerina*!lol She LOVES IT!!! She has had this favorite show since she was only 4 months old. And Gets all Excited every time we put it on for her, Squealing and legs kicking in delight:)lol

Well I've got to get off of here, and try to eat something. Take Care You all! Looking forward to seeing many BFP's in the NEW YEAR! And hopefully a Few before then too;)

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Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Ultra Sound:)

Everything went Great today. We found out we are even Earlier Pregnant than we thought.lol I must have ovulated late. Baby is measuring about 5 weeks 4 days, and the due Date should be around August 11th. Since it was so early we didn't get a reading on the heartbeat or get to hear it. However we COULD SEE IT faintly flickering already:D For just a second at the 1st of my ultra sound the nurse thought she might of seen 2 sacks. However the 2 nurses in the room soon figured it was just implantation bleeding. After she looked at my ovaries we seen where I had ovulated from the right side, which was kind of neat.

My nurse called me later today, and told me my Dr. said everything looked good. And that he wanted me to come in next week for another ultra sound just to make sure everything is still looking good. I had already figured that this would be the case since we wasn't able to check out the heartbeat yet. Most RE's usually Release you after you get a healthly heartbeat from what I've seen. Like I said before I'm very newly preg., and we had no way of knowing this based only on my last period I would have been closer to 7 weeks today. Oh well, I get to see my little *Lion Heart* one more time before Christmas:) (started calling the baby this in my head a few days ago) I don't know why maybe because it sounds like such a strong name, and this little one is here with us against all odds.

You can see the round sack is a black circle, and our teeny tiny DOT which is at the top of it. (I went back and highlighted the framing crosses in yellow since I though you'd all be able to see what I was talking about. You could hardly see the white crosses.lol

My next Ultra Sound is Scheduled for next week on Thursday. Dec.23rd! Praying that Everything looks Great again, and that my little Lion Heart continues to grow strong and healthy:)

As far as my symptoms go right now.

I am having lots of terrible nausea, but thankfully haven't had t0 thrown up again yet.Don't know if I can last threw tonight though. I'm feeling really sick today. (I really don't like feeling so ill because I have a baby now, and its really hard to do small things when you feel so badly in your body) Please Pray that this gets better!

Food Aversions- Fried Chicken, French Fries, bacon

Food Cravings- Salad, Veggies, Buffalo wings with ranch.lol And recently a hamburger.

Hope you all are well! Looking forward to hearing about many new BFP's this new year:D

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Tuesday, December 7, 2010


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Went in for my blood test today. Everything went fast I stopped and chatted with a few nurses.. of course they all had heard about the positive test.lol The nurse taking my blood said that not that long ago a lady was preparing for their IVF cycle and also got pregnant naturally.

I wasn't too nervous this time waiting for the call like I was last time. I just felt that this is meant to be, and that its all going to work out. (although just a little worry does try to creep in here and there)

My numbers & progesterone both came back good and high. And my Ultra Sound is scheduled on Dec 14th. Tuesday/next week. We should be able to see a heartbeat, and praying with all my heart that we do! I should be close to 7 weeks then. I'm so Overwhelmed with Joy!

Praying for all those still ttc right now, and that all of you get your BFP's soon... through treatment or an unexpected natural pregnancy.

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Awake & Thinking...

I can't believe that I am going in for a BETA test today. I was just never even expecting this. It feels so strange to me in a way, because I never really though of us conceiving on our own. I had gotten past that and accepted that we are infertile. I do and always have believed that Miracle pregnancies happen. I just never thought of it really happening to me! How I feel is.. still SHOCKED, Amazed, Excited, and More Thankful than you can imagine!!! And a bit nervous too.

Well I need to get off of here and get myself & dassah ready. I took a e.p.t. digital this morning and as you can see still pregnant:) I never take these unless I've already gotten a second line off a first response test. There's just something terribly cruel about a test that can spell the words..Not Pregnant. At least that's how I feel.

BFP 12-7-10 6am

I hope to be updating with some great news and and ultra sound date later. Please keep me in your prayers today.

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Monday, December 6, 2010

3rd test

BFP 12-6-10 @ 7am

Ok I do believe I am pregnant now, not just because of the test but because morning sickness is in full swing:0= The 1st day of my last period was on Oct. 29th. So I'm guessing I'm 5 or 6 weeks along. Which makes since why I'm having morning sickness. It started it last time around this time.

I've called my Nurse and left her a message at my clinic to let her know what is going on. Looks like I'll be canceling my FET, and postponing till later.lol Who knew that I would have a natural pregnancy?! Guess dh's best sperm made it to my egg and fertilized it "against all odds". And my cycles did regulate after having dassah. I am hoping my clinic will give me a pregnancy test & ultra sound for my PEACE of mind. I will relax a good bit after I see a heart beat!

Ahh! this is crazy!!! Still don't feel quite real.

My nurse just called me back. I'm going in tomorrow at 11:00 for a BETA test!!!!! And if all looks good with that I should be getting an ultra sound sometime next week!!! So excited:D

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is this really happening???

On my last post I talked about being on CD 35, and calling my nurse to make sure it wasn't a problem that I hadn't started yet. (in early process of getting ready for FET in Jan) Anyway she asked me if I took a pregnancy test I said NO as you already know if you read my last post. I thought I'd start over the weekend no big deal.

Well today since I woke up I have felt very nauseous off and on all day. And thought to myself- OH NO!!! I might have a stomach virus. Around 7pm Dh went to town and I asked him to go ahead and stock up on HPT's for our upcoming FET, and if AF don't come by the Friday I know my clinic will want me to at least check if I am preg. He gladly got them.lol When he walked in the door with them though he said- why don't you go take one now. I said- Umm I'd rather not I don't really get along with those test. And besides I don't have to pee right now.

We watched a movie and Dh went to bed straight after that. I however did have to go then and thought to myself- I guess I will POAS what can it hurt. And so I did and glanced at it after just 2 min. and saw a 2nd line. SHOCK!!!! Immediately go get dh out of the bed, and he followes me to the bathroom. By this point the test was still fresh and it was only 3 1/2 min post POAS.lol He was shocked too, of course and we didn't know what to think about it. I mean clear as day there was a 2nd line. But we're both infertile. This could be a faults positive. Could I some how still be carrying HCG in my urine since June? all these things were running through my head. And the though that we possibly could have a miracle pregnancy. But still in denial if it is.

BFP 12-5-10 @ 10pm

So after all that I emailed my sister about it all. And then went to bed, but never feel asleep because I felt extremely uncomfortable and nauseous after not sleeping for hrs I got up at 1:45am and threw up a ton and it hurt so bad. After this I was in less denial. I have felt this before I had morning sickness the whole 9 months with my 1st. I then tried to go back to sleep but still felt sickly. Dh suggested to go eat a few crackers. So I did, but since I had to pee again POAS I did again.

BFP 12-6-10 @ 2am

And here it is again 2nd line. Will be testing again around 7am to 9am. And calling my clinic to ask what they think, and ask for a BETA of course. This isn't suppose to be able to happen medically speaking.lol

I hope you are getting some wonderful sleep. I need sleep too. Praying I can get a few hrs before Dassah wakes up.

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Friday, December 3, 2010

CD 35

Yep that's me as of today. AF where ARE U!!! Thanks allot PCOS! On a good note I called my nurse at the clinic to ask about AF and ifs OK that I haven't started yet. She says she's not worried about that right now. If I start this weekend to just call on Monday, and if I don't start by next Friday to call her then to see about getting something to make me start I'm sure. I fairly sure I will start before then, I would be on CD42 by then. However I have had a 43 day cycle before.

So strange that my IVF nurse asks me if I have taken a Pregnancy test? I said- NO (thinking to self..Geez lady.. We're both infertile, umm no don't think so) I was never addicted to POAS while ttc #1 and see no reason to ever take a test unless I reach like cd 45ish 50ish. Then I might POAS. But on a good note I do believe in Miracles, and know it could happen. Slimmest chance but it could. To say I'd be shocked if this ever happens in my life is an understatement. That's my feelings on this.lol I'm so tired I need to go to bed now I'm babbling.

Going to leave you now with a few recent pics of our girl..

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