This is hard for me to talk about. I've Been putting it off because I didn't want Anyone to feel bad or hurt. But I now feel its time for me to talk about it, because it's not helping me to keep all my feelings bottled up. It only makes it worse, and much harder the longer I wait.
If you've noticed one of our tickers above you can see that we have already started TTC #2. Its not that we don't Love our precious sweet baby girl, or that we are not thankful because we are more Thankful for her than words can describe, and she makes us unbelievably Happy! She brings such a Great Joy into our lives each and every day:)
I also feel a terrible sadness for many others that are still TTC their 1st:,(Sometimes I feel Guilty that we already have one little miracle, and are trying for another. But I have to remind myself that "IT'S OK" to want more children. In fact its Normal for most people to want more than 1 child unless they wanted an only child. I've always wanted a large family, always dreamed of having 4 kids pretty close in age. But Infertility has put a huge ???? if that will ever happen for us.
The Longing for more children has not went away for me. While I was pregnant I sometimes thought about what all we might have to go through to Conceive again. And After I had Our Sweet girl, we knew we wanted siblings for her. No Questions in our mind about that, it is a Fact. Having her and watching her grow so fast has made the desire even worse, because I know what it will probably take for us to become pregnant again, and I worry about a very long struggle with wondering if it will happen again. We're STILL Infertile:( And I feel an Urgency to Try asap because we have 3 precious little frozen babies just waiting, and I'm not comfortable leaving them frozen for very long. I feel alone sometimes, and don't see many people who had their 1st via IVF and are trying for #2. I've seen a few, but not many.
We had a Consult Appt. with our RE on August 31st. (Our Baby girl would be 12weeks the next day) We were there to discuss baby #2 of Course. IT WENT GREAT!!! We Discussed FET, and he broke it all down for us. Although I can't remember it all, but that's OK my Nurse will give me a schedule when it comes time and explain and answer any of my questions. I did not Breast feed at all So that is not an Issue for us. If all goes good with the Pre Testing He has given us the GO Ahead with a January FET:) Just what I wanted too! He said to Call with My Dec. Period and we'd get things started. My Worries Now are- If my uterus looks good?? And If AF will Corporate?!?! having PCOS really gives me issues sometimes...grr. However he did say if I needed Something to make me start just to call and that would not be a problem.
He Had allot of Pictures of our Embryo's at each day. We have 3 Snow Babies:) I found out they were frozen single/ one in each straw. Which is Great!!! Gives them more control about the amount transferred. He said- All 3 were Great Looking Embryo's!!! And when he showed us those pictures My Heart skipped a beat!! I Love them all!! I'm Hoping and Praying with all My heart all My sweet babies make it through the thaw, and stick! Can't help but hope that we get to transfer the 1st 2 snow babies, and it takes. And then we would have 1 little snow baby waiting and that could be our 3rd or 4th child. I know that's not likely to happen, but I must try to keep hoping for the best. And to NEVER GIVE UP!! That and with God's help of course is what got us through the 1st time.
Sorry this is SO LONG. I do feel better now. This is a sign that I need my "Blogging Therapy" again. Because I can say truthfully that my blogger friends truly did help me though the hard times and the good times too. Missing it allot.
Take care all of you!! Wishing you all Happiness and Lots of BFP's!