Hello all:) Yes I should be in the bed right now, but I can't seem to fall asleep just yet.lol Tomorrow is the *Big Day* and we will finally get to see, and meet our baby for the 1st time. I'm feeling anxiously excited about it of course, and hoping my epidural takes!lol
Today I've also taken the time to look back. And I almost can't believe where we are right now, and how far we've come in just 1 yrs time! It amazes me still that we are going to have a baby. I really haven't forgotten all we went through to get to this point. It was all worth it of course!! But I will not Lie.. up until I actually got pregnant I really didn't know for sure if & when it would ever happen. It was and is something I will never forget. But at the same time I want to continue to take what good came out of it and learn from it.
After battling infertility for over 2 1/2 yrs, going through 2 canceled IVF/ICSI cycles, and so much emotional pain & heartache that I just can not begin to describe. We Came out stronger as a couple... drew closer together... And learned not to give up when something matters that much to you.. And of course something I already knew.. never to lose Faith:)
I do talk about Infertility more openly now at times if the opportunity presents itself, because its easier now of course, and I've come across Many people in every day life who are going through IF or know someone who is. And I've got to tell our story, and hopefully someone else feels like their not alone, and that there is hope. If it only serves to encourage just a little... that is wonderful to me. I'm passionate about Infertility. I still feel that most people can't ever come close to understanding what that word even means, and what people go through. They can't really help it of course, but I do see allot of ignorance out there.lol This is old news though.
I'm so thankful to have this baby! She means so much to me and I haven't even met her yet. I wouldn't trade her even if I could go back in time and have one or more. She came along right when she was suppose to. I am still Amazed!! I can't help it, it just hasn't wore off, and I hope it never does:) I never want to take for granted this miracle we've been given.
Also Those of you out there that are still ttc for your 1st, 2nd, ex. and are battling Infertility... know that I think of you often, and that I care very much about what your going through. I pray that your journey's to your babies is not far away, and for you not to lose hope.
Sorry I seem to be going on and on.. I think I'm tired now.lol Better go get a few hours sleep before I need to get ready. Goodnight to you all! Hope you have a great week.