OK I caved and POAS twice the last 2 mornings.. BOTH times it was a BFN..but could have been to early to tell. Yesterday I started spotting through out the day.. by last night it turn into FULL Flo bleeding.. AF has arrived and IUI #1 is a BFN. Don't feel too sorry for me though:) I knew the whole time our odds of IUI working for us. With my Hubby's Motility problem.. WE NEED ICSI!!!
I called my IVF nurse this morning and left her a message asking her.... If I still need to come in tomorrow morning for my Beta or not?? And I also asked her.... How SOON can we start a new IVF cycle??
I got a call back about 2 hours later.. AND Thankfully I do not have to come in tomorrow for my scheduled Beta.. It would have been a waste of time... and a phone call telling me what I already know.lol
Ok.. even better NEWS!!! My Wonderful Dr. is going to let me Jump right back into IVF!!! YAY!!! I will start Birth Control Pills TOMORROW!!! And We are Now scheduled for IVF the week of July 20th!!! This its GREAT!!! I am very happy about this... Now I can put my focus on this new Goal:)
Yesterday was my husbands 25th Birthday.. and he was/is at work(off shore/oil field) and I had to tell him that I started my period and that the IUI didn't work:( I could tell he was disappointed.. he had believed that this IUI thing could work more than me.. He is too sweet!!!
Anyway we talk at lot on IM on the computer last night... He says that he's with me to the End...
NO MATTER HOW LONG IT TAKES:) And we Both have Faith and believe that God has a plan for us.. and that he does want us to have children in his perfect timing. WE don't know why God has allowed us to go through this BUT we believe it is for a Reason.. even though we don't know what that reason is or even understand it.
Last night we also discussed adoption again... WE have never been against adopting... If God wants us to adopt we will... If God wants us to have BOTH Biological Children and Adopted... WE are completely OK with that too.. WE Would LOVE them the SAME!!!! And My husband agrees with me completely on this!!! I don't know what God has planned for us YET!!! But we are praying for His Will in our lives and for him to send us the children that he wants us to have:) If we ever do adopt we want to be in Gods will.. and for him to send us the baby that is meant to be ours... Adoption is a scary thing in many ways.. But if you truly want something you should "Never give up".
I don't know much about adoption.. but last night I did a little research on the computer and I'm interested in "Bethany Christian Services". WE know nothing about adoption and don't know for sure When or if we will ever adopt.. BUT I still feel I need to educate Myself about it.. Because YES adoption could be in our future:)
I also want to say before I end this POST that My husband is SO GOOD to me... And he understands me... and supports me completely.. He is my Best Friend!!! And While we were talking last night... I swear I felt Like I was falling in Love with the Man all over AGAIN!!LOL
I am abundantly Blessed.. And I'm SO thankful!!!
I hope you all have a Great day!! I'm praying for you ALL!!!
ON MY WAY to OUR....."2nd attempt" of our 1st IVF/ICSI Cycle...lol thats a mouth full to say...